Inspiration

Chances are he'll never see this, but O'Neal from this season's Biggest Loser is my inspiration. Here is this man, that was fit most of his life and then just got lazy. He's an older man, I'm guessing like late 50's early 60's. But MAN is he AMAZING! On tonights episode he went down with an injury, hurt his knee during a challenge. His brother died. But did he let that get him down? Sure thing. But he used his anger and sorrow to channel into it into something even greater and he lost 8 pounds this week! How awesome is that. When he could have given up so easily, he fought harder. It makes me wonder what my hold up is. Am I scared to lose weight? Why has it taken me this long to decide to do it? Perhaps I am scared of transforming. I know I'm beautiful and I know my friends and family know that but I want the world to know that. I want the world to look at me and say, Hey, there's Tiffany. She woke up one morning and decided to change her life. It's extremely hard being overweight. The stigmata that revolves around it is terrifying. I've been passed up for jobs, dates, and who knows what else because of my weight. It's heartbreaking. I hide it well but I struggle on a daily basis with my health and my peace of mind. I really don't have an option at this point. I'm 27 almost 28. Single. No children. The one thing I want to do in life is have children. I want to be a mom. I want to be able to run and play with my kids. I don't want to be the fat mom who isn't out on the field running and playing. I don't want to be the person who has diabetes before she's 30, and right now I am on a thin line with that. I HAVE to do this. There are no more excuses. It's either lose the weight or die early. I am annoucing here today that I currently weigh in at 317 pounds and sadly thats not the heaviest that I have been. How did I get here? I don't know. I just know that I am here and it needs to change. My goal is to lose 120 pounds by New Years Eve. I know I can do it. Once I get started and the weight starts falling off I'll see how much I can do it. Getting started is the hard part. But I will do it this year. I'm not going to let anything hold me back, just like O'Neal. Come hell or highwater I will lose weight and transform myself inside and out. Its a complete transformation. Losing weight leads to being more confident. Being confident leads to doing new and different things from what I am used to.

So this is me world. This is me telling you that this is my year. Nothing is going to hold me back. Not an arguement with my mom. Not being half way across the country from my dad. NOTHING! You just wait. You'll see!