Forever Changing

This post is totally not weight loss related. Just some things that are weighing on my mind...

Do you ever stop and look around and think to yourself "How did I get here?" How did you end up where you are? Are you happy there? There are so many things in life I could have done differently. But if I had done them differently, who's to say I'd be where I am today. Sure I regret some things, but most, I've learned from and can use that experience to make me a better person.

Do you ever wish you could change everything bad in the world? Like, why must our men and women go to foreign countries and pay the ultimate sacrifice? Why do those same men and women end up homeless, unemployed, unappreciated, unrecognizable, unloved? There really is no reason any of that happens BUT it does. On a daily basis. The next time you see an older homeless person, ask them if they've served in the military. I bet you just might get a yes.

Do you ever think of where you'll be and where this country will be 10 years, 50 years, 100 years from now? Will you even have a roof over your head? Will you have food to eat? Will you be healthy? Will you be able to afford a DR and medicine if you aren't healthy?

Why aren't there more acts of random kindness in this world? Why can't we all just pay it forward? All it takes is 5 or 10 minutes to put a smile on someone's face, to make them feel appreciated. I used to think that random acts of kindness were stupid. That no one would appreciate them even if I did commit them. But I have discovered over the years that people DO appreciate them. Someone DOES notice. Even if it's not the person you do the nice thing for, HE always takes note. And when the time come that matters the most, you'll walk in to HIS arms and stay there forever. Safe and Sound!

I'm getting baptized on June 13th and I couldn't be more proud of myself. I have come a very very long way in the last 10 years and to be at this point in my life where I can say, God, I am willing to let you wash away my sins. I know that's what you want. I want to live my life for you. I want you to lead me where I should be.

I can't change everything bad in this world, but I can sure go to my grave trying. And try I will. Every day I'll try to make this world a better place for me, my children, my grand children and their grand children. One random act of kindness every day. That's all it takes.